nonetheless!

deserted and lonely

as a solitary peeble

crunched and punched

and turned away

pain rising high,

...so high

embedded deep into the earth,

by a feet that loved

or so,

i thought

the me inside

in shades of gold and blue, besides...

...torn apart,

like a blank sheet,

with smeared ink

of distant memories

and blots of u*f****ful niceties.

I shall succeed

so be it,

that it never alienates me

from that around me.

May be

the reason explains

the faulty choices i've made

like a flickering flame,

that's struggling,

to burn...

...for air and for life,

to stand up straight.

let me be,

'cause i will have the highest

even if it kills me.